So many changes...

These past few days have been a bit crazy.  Finally got the news I've been hoping for (or at least part of it). The building I want for my business may have an opening.  Of course this info comes to me as my business adviser goes on vacation for a week!  So here I am...waiting.  I am so not good at waiting.  Perhaps this is God reminding me that He is in control and good things come to those who wait.  With the anxiety from waiting, my son's fast approaching graduation, baseball games nightly, and starting on the new craze of bee pollen...I feel like I'm having out of body experiences!  I am so ready for a change but it's all coming at the same time!  I can do this...I will do this!  My mind races...morning, noon, and night but it's all good.
This is what I've been waiting for...for at least 9 months now.  I'm scared...can it really be happening?  Is it too good to be true?  I believe with all my heart that this is it, but fear keeps me grounded.  The mix of emotions is almost too much to handle some days. Throw in a couple of teenagers with attitudes and it can get very interesting.  For now I shall seek peace in prayer.

Why is it so hard for some people to grow up?

This week has been full of drama...and I hate drama. The sad part of this is the drama was from adults not kids...most of them men. WTH! I was raised to speak my mind and own my opinions...right or wrong. I was also raised to admit when I'm wrong...not a fun thing to do but necessary. So when I hear of adults belittling children in front of others...it just burns my ass. Most of the experiences I hear of are with coaches. We all know how the saying goes...those who can do, those who can't teach/coach. Now I don't necessarily agree with that but in a few cases...it is so true. Gotta love a grown man who belittles a child in front of all his classmates and coaches and then realizes what an ass they are (weeks later) but apologizes to the child in private. Grow up and grow a set! If you are man enough to say it out loud then be man enough to apologize out loud! How about the kid who has medical issues and is told he is lazy because he can't work out or the kid who is compared in a negative way to their sibling or the kid who hears the adults whispering about them in a negative way or the kids that are threatened to be cut from the team in the middle of the season or the kids that are wrongly accused of something in front of a team? My best advice is this...Unless you and your family are perfect...THINK BEFORE YOU SPEAK! Oh...and Grow up! I really wish we, as a society would hold adults to the same standards that we hold children.

New Journey

Well, here I am 41 and unemployed. I lost my job 9 months ago due to my boss not securing funding. I can't say that I was completely shocked because I saw it coming. To be quite honest I also prayed a lot about my job. I was restless and not happy with the administration and wanting a new challenge in my life. I like to think my prayers were answered in the form of losing my job. I am working on opening my own business. It is a slow and, at times, frustrating process. I know that it will happen in God's time...I'm just hoping it's in the near future;)
You ask...what kind of business? A small Italian carry-out. Specializing in all homemade food. I have spent the last several months perfecting the recipes and so far the reviews are good. I'm currently looking for a building to rent/buy. The owners of the empty buildings in town are not eager to rent them out. They don't want to invest any money in fixing them up. Apparently they would rather let the buildings fall apart, which makes me very frustrated. What kind of business minded person would rather pay taxes on an empty building rather than collect rent for it??? Some people just make me shake my head!
This journey has made me really examine my own life and what I want. I want what is best for my family. I want to follow in my father's footsteps in owning my own business, I want to be my own boss, I want to share my creations with the world, I want to build a business that my family will benefit from and be proud of. So I shall continue to knock on doors and make phone calls. I will be successful!

How do you say goodbye?

This is not a post I want to make...no one should ever have to. I received some terrible news last week. My friend, from high school, died. Her name is Rene. She is only 39 years old...about my age. She is a great person. Like most, we didn't keep in touch regularly but would run into each other from time to time. We always shared a laugh...she was good for that. She leaves behind a husband and a son who is only 7. My heart is breaking. I am so sad. I don't know what to do. I'm confused. I'm worried. I know that she is in a better place but I can't help but to think how much she is needed here for her son and all of us who love her.
Her funeral is this week. I am really dreading this. How do you say goodbye? I don't think I will. I will just say...until we meet again, dear friend.
So people...we don't know what tomorrow holds...here is my best advice: Laugh Often,
Live Well, and Love Much! Take advantage of every day, love your God, love your family, and love yourself. If you are thinking of someone, pick up the phone and call. Missing someone?...get in the car and go visit them. And as crazy as it sounds...join facebook and reconnect with some of those "old" friends through there.
Thanks for the facebook advice Deb:)

A Very Merry Christmas!

What a wonderful time of year. I must say that this was a great Christmas. The whole family was together and had a great time. There is nothing more precious than family and I truly appreciate mine. They boys were happy with their gifts and even shared with others. We all played, laughed, and ate way too much! What fun! Now that a few days have past and we will be heading into a new year, I'm excited for the year that lies ahead. I am praying for health and happiness for my family and yours. Best wishes to you all and may God bless you with everything that you need.

I love Tuesday nights

Why do I love Tuesday nights? Because that is when I have a some individual time with my 15 year old. We started watching the tv show "The Mentalist" together. Ever since that first episode, Tuesdays from 9-10 has been our time. No matter what he is doing, he stops and comes to join me. He is usually the one reminding me that "it's our night mom". How cool is that!? I know it doesn't sound like much but it's nice to have something in common with a 15 year old boy. We chat about life during the commercials and try to solve the crime before the other one does. To my surprise, one week he had a friend over and they both came down to join me watching the show, the show was not on that night but they stayed for the hour anyway and just chatted and laughed with me. That was pretty neat. Call me selfish but I hope "The Mentalist" is on for years to come. You all should watch it and tell your friends to watch it also. We need the ratings to stay up so it will stay on the air. I hope you all find a special time with your loved ones...no matter how silly it seems. Don't get me wrong, we all spend a lot of time together as a family, and I love it. But with teenagers, they start to close down and spend more time in their room, with friends, playing sports, and whatever else, so it's nice when they make special time just for you. Thanks Anthony...I love you!

Thankful for many things but where did the time go?

Well, here it is...the Sunday after Thanksgiving. What a wonderful holiday break from school and work. The entire family was together for Thanksgiving except for my niece, Christina. It was great to spend time with everyone and eat like kings. Thanks for all the wonderful food mom! After the feast we went through all the sale ads and made a plan for our shopping trip. Yes, we go shopping on "black Friday". This year we took it easy. We left at 5:30a.m. and got home around 9:30p.m. What a fun time we had! I haven't laughed that hard since I don't know when. On Saturday we visited some more, took the kids to the mall, and then to the parade. Today was grocery shopping, church, and some more Christmas shopping. I am a little tired and I have to go back to work tomorrow. I am thankful that I had such a wonderful break and that I have a job to go back to, I just don't know where the time went. Here's hoping that all of you had a pleasant Thanksgiving with new memories to cherish.
My things I'm Thankful for List:
God
Family
Health
hugs from my kids
kisses from my husband
Being able to talk to my parents on a daily basis
Home
Job
Friends
Sunshine
Rain
Nature
Sight, Sound, Touch, Smell, Speech
A warm bed
Children's laughter
A working car
my dishwasher
all my appliances
my wonderful memories
hurdles that make me stronger
Freedom
the ability to provide for my family
a good sale
lower gas prices
the beach
snow days
and many more things...I'm just happy to be here.