The voices in my head are beginning to speak out loud!

Alright, you all know I think this mothering thing is difficult...but must I face challenges every day? I need a day off! I need a guide book! I think I'm too involved with my kids and their lives but I don't know how to do anything different. My kids are a part of me and when they experience strong emotions...I feel like I am one with them and they don't even have to show it or express it for me to know exactly how they are feeling. I know that may sound strange but it's been like that forever. I know my oldest is only 14 but how do I sit by and watch his heart get broken? I know this is just puppy love but do you remember being 14? I remember the heart ache of being a young teen...for them it is real and I don't want to undermine his feelings. I've taught him to be respectful and in tune to other people's feelings...so how do I teach him how to keep himself happy and not hurt anyone else??? The voices in my head are screaming to tell him the warning signs of the creatures who lurk in the dark (aka-girls) and then they are screaming to be quiet and let him learn. One problem...I haven't been able to keep my mouth shut since birth! LOL We all know if your parent forbids you to date someone...they look all that more attractive. So, I haven't forbid the relationship but I have been pointing out obvious behaviors to him. Is this wrong? I hug him and tell him how much his father and I love him and that we only want what's best for him. He does talk to me...openly and I don't want to lose that part of our relationship. Please pray for me to keep my mouth shut except when it's appropriate. Any words of wisdom are greatly appreciated.

Lovin' every minute of it!

This weather is FABULOUS! I was so ready for the sun! With baseball season in full swing...I'm loving this weather. We are normally at a field 3-5 nights per week. Anthony is playing in the Pony league this year and Dom in the Bronco league. I can remember when they played tee-ball.
I complain about all the running but the truth is...I wouldn't change a thing. There is nothing like sitting in the bleachers watching your kid and their friends play. The friendly trash talk is funny.
They know better than to be rude (although I'm sure they are when I'm out of ear shot...LOL).
Watching them come together as a team and help one another is great.
Tomorrow is "opening day". Can you believe that Anthony will not participate (due to his age). I can't believe he participated for the last time 2 years ago. I remember his first one. Dom only has this year and next year left. Wow! I guess we really do sit by and watch them grow up right in front of our eyes.
Well, to those of you who are rooting your child on whether it's baseball, soccer, or track...enjoy them and the weather.

Please tell me I wasn't like this

OK...are all girls self absorbed rude creatures???? Yes, I know we all can be but it sure isn't fun when your on the other end. Who knew motherhood would be so emotional and confusing? You know, I pride myself on having great kids...they are confident, kind, respectful, mannerly, smart, and for the most part leaders. They know how to make good choices and usually make many of their own (age appropriate) decisions. Enter girlfriend...boy loses mind and just does what she says. She only thinks of herself and only does things the way she wants when she wants. UGH! Mom feels like she is losing control (and she is) and wants son to do what he wants and what mom feels is appropriate but girl is selfish and ruins everything! Mom wants her son to see the girl for how she really is but he just wants there to be peace...mom feels bad and cries. I feel like I'm living on a soap opera and he's only 14! So, I let it go...things work out and everyone is happy (kind of).
I know this is just the very tip of the iceberg with these creatures that lurk in the shadows of my sons life but I don't think anyone will ever be good enough. LOL The roller coaster ride just took it's first corkscrew. I came out a little queasy but unscathed. I just need to remember that he is a great young man with a good head on his shoulders and all will work out.
Until next time...keep me/us in your prayers. This mothering thing is great but it sure isn't easy.

To the BEST mom in the world!

Here's to the BEST mom ever! Happy Birthday! Today we celebrated my mom's 66th birthday. She is the most amazing woman I have ever met. My oldest son refers to her as indestructible. She has been through a lot over the last couple of years. She came through cancer...twice and a broken back, colds, flu, strange rashes, radiation burns, etc. Not to mention she has a pacemaker! I believe the saying "you can't hold a good woman down" refers to her. Through it all...she smiled and her faith never wavered. Many times people would stop her to talk about their problems and ailments and she would listen and comfort them...and never tell them what she was going through. She is the most unselfish woman. I only hope that one day...I can be half as wonderful as her. She is a true inspiration. I thank God for giving her to me. Happy birthday mom and may we celebrate many, many more together.

Stop the madness!!!!!!!!!!!!

Enough is enough already! I am so tired of hearing about the "pregnant man". There is no such thing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God created women to bare children. This so called "pregnant man" is nothing more than a bearded lady. She has a uterus...men do not. I'm not here to judge...that's between you and your maker but I'm tired of the media publicizing absolutely false information. Can you imagine the kids seeing these headlines and what they must think? This is ridiculous! People can choose to lead their lives in whatever manner they choose but let's not create absurd lies for the public. I'm not wasting anymore of my time on this...I just needed to vent the truth.